Why I go into the past….
At the beginning of my healing journey I was given this very valuable exercise.
Find a photo of you… or two… or six, it doesn’t matter.
But go back to those times. And sit with that person. Was she happy? Was she sad? Was she scared? Was she angry? Was she hurt? Was she spontaneous? Was she playful? Was she creative? Was she quiet or talkative….
Write it all down. Journal. Write out your story… go back and feel your feelings. Your ups and downs.
When I first did this exercise I had 40 pages of crazy! I wasn’t even 30 years old yet. It doesn’t matter!!! We all have ups and downs in our lives. Honour the crazy!
And just start to become aware… aware of how those feelings are still creeping up today. Or how those inspirations you had way back then came alive! Sit with your hurts and your accomplishments. Sit with your relationships. The ones you still carry and the ones that are gone. Sit with your feelings and your pain.
This acknowledgment is the first step.
The first step to change.
To breaking cycles.
To releasing old hurts.
To stepping up into the truth of who you are.
Once we’ve become aware and acknowledged our feelings you’ll find a couple things happen. Just listening to your story will start to change it. You’ll say ok, that happened but I’m not there anymore so it’s safe to let that go…. or you’ll stay stuck in the emotion but you’ll be aware of it!
“I can’t believe this happened!”
“I can’t believe I did this”
“I can’t believe they did this!!!”
But you’ve know acknowledged that it hurt you. And it’s affecting your life… even today, years later! You’ve probably created a way of coping or protecting yourself from further being hurt that way. You’ve closed off in certain ways and it’s time to change that.
When we cope using addictions or shame techniques we aren’t helping ourselves or anyone around us.
It’s time we changed the story.
We can’t change what happened in the past, but we can change how we feel about it!
And this is the work!
This is the way to create healthier bodies, healthier bank accounts, healthier relationship, healthier minds, and open hearts.
This is going to be one of the exercises I walk you through during my program….
We are going to shake up your story and get you back to being you!
Once you do this work you’ll go back to those same photos and you won’t see the anger, the frustration, the hurt, you’ll see the true you, you’ll love yourself like never before!
I promise, I’ve done this exercise at least 20 times and each time is just as effective… but each time dealing with the next layer, with the new situation I’ve found myself in through out my journey ??