I feel it all.
I feel when someone is thinking about me, or when they are angry at me.
But here’s the thing.
Just because I feel it doesn’t mean it has to affect me.
Those aren’t my thoughts.
Those aren’t my emotions to journey through.
What is mine to journey through is how it makes me feel.
Today while sharing an unspoken emotion with someone I thought- this is crap. This is like the 5th person whom I’ve had to deal with this situation with!
And I was angry at them for being hurt or angry with me… even though I know that is their responsibility to deal with their own emotions and has nothing to do with me.
Of course it’s also my responsibility to deal with my emotions … so why was I angry back?
Because I don’t like to be unliked.
Because I try my best to be loving and accepting and kind everyday.
I’m not trying at all to hurt any of these people. And I’m guessing my words and actions were not the first ones to trigger them, and I won’t be the last because it has nothing to do with me.
So I know I need to cut the emotions ties and let them figure out their own emotions, but you see, I can only do that when I figure out why their actions and emotions are triggering me.
So today I forgave.
I forgave the few people whom I have recently triggered who projected their frustration my way. I felt it. And I know how shitty it feels.
I did not mean to hurt you in anyway.
And I’m also still learning to deal with my hurts. Cause it’s frustrating. But today I’m one step closer to healing ?