I don’t even know how to write this post:
*because it’s still so fresh and still sinking in
*because it wasn’t even a year ago that I posted about the passing of her daughter
*because I’m still processing the transition at this point in my own healing journey
*tear*
Yesterday Rain transitioned to the spirit world.
She was the very first horse I bought with my own money and of my own decision (not a family horse) in 2005 after college.
(Her with Storm as a 3 day old filly at her side)
I took her to my riding lessons. She was my riding horse until she got injured.
She was my Parelli horse. until she got injured again…
She was always injuring herself lol.
She was the herd mare. She was my rock. She was head strong, she was grounded, she was confident. Not much shook this mare, and when she was really injured she stood strong and never let the pain show.
She was the reason I started learning about energy healing. She was the reason I started down the road of natural horsemanship. She was the reason I started Horse Healing Facilitation.
She was with me through thick and thin.
And as sad as I am that she is gone, she told me she was on the way out. Actually, for the last 5 years, each spring she would not ‘winter’ well, and each spring I’d ask her what she needed, but within a week or two of her spring deworming, and fresh new grass she’d be ‘right as Rain’ and off she’d go leading the others.
She’s also told me there was a strong new mare energy going to join the herd to replace her as lead mare. (that was in 2020) and in 2021 instead of finding the next lead mare I came home with two gelded minis. 
I saw her just two days before her passing and she told me it was time for the spring deworming, I saw clearly she had gone down hill since the last time I’d been out. And Dancer, one of those minis, was standing right there by her side.
On the day she passed (I don’t know the exact time) but right around the time of noticing her death, I was at a healing session with Ashley. We were digging deep into the Masculine and Feminine energies that were present in my life.
We were digging deep into ALL of the issues around the EXACT reason I started healing in the first place. The reason that Rain was so clearly trying to show me back in 2010-2011. And I have no doubt that the divine timing of her passing was also a transition for me to ‘the other side’ of my storm. This is what I am still processing.
Walking out of that session turned a new page for me. And I know Rain AND Storm will be holding such an abundant energy from the spirit world for us down here. But right now this is just so fresh and new and raw.
So the grieving continues… but so do the miracles. 