“Reveal the truth behind illusion and chaos”
I’ve been receiving a lot of coyote medicine lately.
As per usual I ignored it 
until I couldn’t anymore.
Today I came out to the horses, it was windy so I hunkered down behind the wind fence in the next pen over and watched them through the barbwire fence.
To my surprise they didn’t really stir.
I had a few excuses “I didn’t engage with them, so they weren’t engaging with me” but that’s not true cause they can feel me from way more distance than that. And have engaged with me long before I even step into Their pen.
N so I sat with my thoughts to see if they’d respond to the ‘conversation’ but they never really did.
The dog did lol. N at first I was annoyed cause she can’t leave me alone. She has to sit on me! 
(she’s too big for that)
N as we sat there I was like maybe I don’t need horse medicine, maybe I just need to sit outside in solitude and let nature help me heal.
And thus appeared the coyote.
I didn’t know at first because he/she was behind me, but the dog did notice and went off barking.
The coyote didn’t move at first but eventually took off with the dog chasing it.
I just sat there not threatened or scared, but soaking up The moment.
So I don’t know much about coyote medicine except ‘trickster’ and so I sat with that.
Where was I being tricked?
But I have looked further into coyote spirit medicine. And the statement above really hit hard.
“Reveal the truth behind illusion and chaos”
And I’m deep into “revealing the truth” in our little paradise of chaos around here.
(I’m also deep into creativity mode but that’s a story for another time)
For the past 6 years I’ve been diving into the deep concept of EMPATHY and extreme sensitivity (like a horse)
Not just as an emotion or the state of compassion for another, but the concept of me being able to feel EVERYTHING in the environment around me …that I resonate with.
(Because every horse doesn’t resonate with everything in the environment around it either, it reacts to that which it resonates with)
And so initially I was under the assumption that I was to take 100% responsibility for what I feel, or think… and I did.
I FELT EVERYTHING but not everything I feel is mine – so I needed more skills to be able to discern otherwise. And tools to deal with what I felt from others.
And a few years ago when I came to this huge AH-HA I felt the horses rejoice. Like fucking cheer for me like I’ve never seen. The angels sung on high. 
it was a huge awakening for me.
So here I sit determining the truth of this situation we are in now.
Universe, what is the truth?
Unravel the chaos for me? Where am I or where are we still in illusion? Where am I being tricked by the ego? What is the truth of this? What needs to be shifted? What else do I need to be aware of?
This is the message of Mr (or miss) coyote today. Thank you for showing up for me.
Nature always knows how to respond.
Coyote Medicine
