I have not posted in awhile and for this I apologize, but I have a good excuse… kinda
Two things have happened since I stopped posting in July:
1. I sunk into deep inner healing work
2. I became pregnant again
And I do believe these two are related… This little one is asking me to change and shift the environmental space its coming into.
A huge transformation is happening in our lives and I’m still right in the middle of shifting it.
This is a huge transformational time for many many people. The universe is really shaking up the whole world and asking for change.
And change its going to get….
I feel a change coming on that is so big I can’t even explain it to you. I have no idea what is going to transpire but it will be hugely transformational.
Personally, I have been unpacking my empathic nature, my VERY HIGHLY sensitive nature. Undoing energy that has been around me and affecting me for many many years.
I’m learning how to be with ALL the feelings within me, projected upon me, or just around me in my environment.
As I heal my own inner wounds, as I release the blocks I used to hold, I am now open to allowing in all the truth (good, bad or otherwise) that is emanating around me.
In my childhood, in my youth, I covered up my sensitivity with wounds. I became deeply hurt by those around me and the experiences I had and covered up who I really was.
Slowly I have been uncovering the truth of who I am, which could never be covered up entirely.
And as I do this my sensitivity is becoming my biggest gift.
And right now, sitting with others pain, the pain of the community, the pain of the earth around me is becoming too much.
I oscillate between the joy, love and gratitude I have for my life, my family, my dreams, my self, my home, my pets, my land, ALL OF IT and the pain, the hurt, the projections, the judgements, the anger, the jealousy, the grief I feel in the world around me. (again all of it)
And it’s all becoming too much.
As a healer my sensitivity is my GREATEST GIFT.
As a spiritual teacher my sensitivity is my GREATEST GIFT.
As an equine facilitator my sensitivity is my GREATEST GIFT.
and I will step into the other side of this, together we will move through this.
This baby is pushing me to dig deeper yet and we will come out of this transformation stronger than ever.
It’s not going to be easy because it’s going to require a depth of truth I have yet to sink into, but it will be all that much more rewarding on the other side. 