Yes this is me.
Riding a cow.
During a 4-H event in my high school years.
I’ve always had the courage to strive for more.
To see what I could do.
To dig deeper into those things that caught my attention and that I became passionate about.
This week I’ve had the courage to open up my photo albums and dig deeper into what’s been holding me back…
What is it… who is it… that I need to step into?
Who AM I at the core of me?
How can I show up more authentically and passionately in my life?
How can I move beyond the limitations I’ve put on myself?
What are those limitations and why did I feel the need to create them?
It’s a long story and a deep wounding, but I’ve gone back to some very traumatic places in my life…
Well, yes and no lol.
You see I didn’t have to go through very much trauma… what I went through was the experience of second hand trauma…
People who had been hurt, hurt me…
And honestly, I’m not sure it was their trauma to hold either, but here we are with multiple generational wounding.
And I’m using the power of this full moon to take the time to lick my wounds.
To heal my past, to release and move forward.
And the universe is listening.
I’m still in the middle of my process so I can’t tell you how this story ends, but I do know that each moment as I go through this process it takes great courage to be completely honest with myself… and give myself all the grace required to transform these past experiences.
Right now I’m working through the place of stepping into my own power,
Healing my need for co-dependant relationships.
Learning how to ‘self sooth’ and releasing any fear I have around standing up for myself.
Even though I had courage it did not mean I was showing up as my most authentic self…
But I have the courage now to break these old belief systems and find a new version of me.
And that is the first step 