It’s been a long few years since 2019/2020.
(And it’s had nothing to do with C0vid)
Three things happened to rock my world.
And I’ve been moving through them ever since.
1. I committed full time to my healing business and decided the best place to work was from home where the horses were
2. I joined a community board of directors as a volunteer that was very dear to my heart and soon there after was appointed chairman as the previous board members stepped down
3. I became a mother (to three little babes) and had to navigate the role of becoming a parent
And not in any particular order these three things in my life have tested me to the bitter end.
There were people in each of these spaces that tested my leadership. That continued to manipulate my decisions, spoke to me in an abusive manner, and even threatened my safety.
And even though I knew they were acting out towards me I continued to forgive them each and every time because I understood that their actions were not because of me but because of who they are.
BUT then it not only kept happening, it got worse and I didn’t have the time, the energy or the capacity to deal with their childish behaviour so I let it go.
I let it all go.
I removed friends and family members from my life,
I stepped down from the board,
And last fall I stopped supporting my business …(but mostly because I was 8 months pregnant, I was sick, and I knew I had to get to the bottom of this situation before I could go on)
So since last year I’ve been getting to the bottom of things.
I’ve gotten really curious about why these people, these situations and these lessons came into my life at all.
And then the healing began.
Each of these situations began with such optimism and enthusiasm.
And then the toxic atmosphere began to emerge.
Until each of them crumbled so they could re-emerge with a new energy.
I’d love to tell you what that looks like but right now I’m only standing on the threshold looking out to a blank slate.
I’m slowly coming out of my healing cocoon.
I’m slowly unraveling all that needed to be seen and witnessed.
I’m still in the process of rewriting this story.
But I’m here writing this post to tell you –
This did not break me.
They do not have that power.
I’m still here, stepping into the best version of myself one step at a time.
And let me tell you, I’m going to create the best damn soul-led business I can,
I’m going to raise three self aware and compassionate young boys
And I’m even going to continue to support the community in ways that feel aligned to me
When life gets you down it doesn’t have to last forever, but we do have to take the time to witness what is going on for us and move through it
I had to face these situations and take the time to heal and move through the emotional process to be stronger on the other side
And I’m here, standing stronger than ever
