When my life was really hard and I didn’t know what to do…. I surrendered.
I asked.
I didn’t know who I was asking but I asked.
In my mind I held the question “how do I change this?”
Knowing how I wanted it to be…
If I felt unloved … I wanted to feel loved.
If I felt unworthy… I wanted to feel worthy.
If I felt not good enough… I wanted to feel like enough.
If I felt unsupported… I wanted to feel supported.
I knew this. I didn’t want to continue to feel the pain and discomfort of where I was and what I was feeling.
I was looking for a way out.
Bit of course what I was doing, what I knew to do up to this point was not working.
Something had to change.
I was more than willing to change and to learn.
So I asked the universe.
The same way as I would anything else….
My mind thinks “I’d like some toast” … so I start putting together the actions to bring about toast.
My mind thought “I need to change this, I’m not willing to continue to feel this way.”
So I asked the universe and I began putting into action. The steps to get me there.
Sometimes that step was PATIENCE… I learned a lot of patience.
Sometimes that step was taking a class, or many classes that built onto one another in teaching me emotional agility.
Sometimes that step was going for a session, a healing or therapy. I did everything from body work to energy work to mind work to spiritual work.
Sometimes that step was having a tough conversation or making a tough decision. These were not easy but when you are in the place of transformation they are necessary.
Sometimes that step was self healing and meditation. I needed to hold so much self compassion for this journey it’s not even describable. I needed to be there for myself to continue to go through these changes. They were hard but the miracles were/are worth it.
And I needed to be committed. This is not a one foot in one foot out journey. It’s an all in journey. It’s a trust the process journey. It’s an amazing journey.
Once your in, your in…. all you have to do it surrender.
the power of surrender…
