This past week I’ve had some very hard days where I’m 5 weeks post c-section delivery and it was the first week where I’ve had less help (which is completely ok) and two kids to take care of and our toddler has started acting out because of jealousy asking for more attention.
And I have physically done too much, but I also assumed I’d be able to handle it.
I assumed my body was healed enough to cope.
And it wasn’t.
I haven’t focused a lot on my emotional /mental healing these days. I’ve focused more on my physical healing and making sure I had food, rest and the necessities.
But this weekend the full moon energy demanded I take a look at why my body still wasn’t healing.
And what came up was the ‘mother wound’
This is only something I’d heard of a time or two so I wasn’t that familiar with it.
Although the more I looked into it/felt into it, this is exactly what I’ve been healing for the last ten years.
The mother wound.
Generational wounds that get past down through the maternal lines.
And isn’t this just the perfect lesson to address five weeks after giving birth to my second baby.
And it was showing up in the healing of my c-section wounds.
It wasn’t about raising babies or the day to day activities that entails.
It was about knowing my worth.
It was about feeling respected.
It was about being trusted.
It was removing the limiting beliefs and insecurities of those around me so I can live my own truth.
It was about undoing the maternal generational wounds – 5 generations back.
I spent five days continuing to undo the mother wound within me.
And I’m more than proud to do this work.
I do this work for me first. And what I learn and experience I then offer to others.
And as the universe is always within divine timing, this is, of course, the perfect time.
It’s a time of healing, growth and transformation within and without.
We have also started the renovations on our basement this past week
The birth of a new phase of my business.
A space to host in person sessions, classes, retreats and workshops.
And the birthing of this space has brought forward triggers and emotions within me that I’ve been sitting with for awhile now.
Similarly the space of respect and trust and worthiness.
This has led me back many generations to the disrespect the women in my family have experienced.
And the space of worthiness. Asking for more. Asking to be honoured in who I am, in the knowledge and gifts I have.
To be trusted to hold the space for others in their healing and transformation.
The space of healing myself and the women who came before me is nothing to take lightly.
So as much as this healing will impact myself, my relationships, the raising of my children, it will also have a huge impact on my business, and in turn also my horsemanship.
Growth, healing and transformation is all around. We are still in the gestation phase of all this healing.
Healing the mother wound.
Stay tuned for the next phases of this beautiful transformation.