This is what emotional, mental and energetic abuse looks like.

I can’t move my right leg because my entire back is out of place.
My neck hurts, my hips are killing me
I can’t stand straight.
I have massive brain fog, I can’t think.
My hormones are giving me a run for my money…. My digestion has left altogether
I can’t get through the laundry or cleaning (and I’m ok with that)
My kids are running loose or I sent them away.
They are over stimulating to someone who can’t even manage themselves.

This is not a post you’ll probably see anywhere else – because people are to busy trying to look perfect and pretend they are fine when they are really hurting deeply inside.

Now. I try not pretend I’m fine when I’m not.
I cry my face off
I call a friend.
I eat a lot of ice cream
AND I have resources to help me get through.

And that’s where this post is going.

I SEE YOU.

I SEE YOU STRUGGLING.

I’ve been there.

I am still there – although not daily anymore I still get days like this.

And I get back up and get help and life gets a little easier.

Each time I get help I can see a little bit farther through the tunnel.

Now I can see through to the other side

It’s not going to be this way forever.

I PROMISE you that.

I won’t stand for that.

There’s a way out I PROMISE

But we have to take the journey.

We have to move through the hard stuff.

We have to peel back the layers and shift the energetics of it all.

We have to learn to see things differently.

Through the lens of forgiveness and healing.

I am not a victim. Although terrible things have happened- I can choose differently. And I am. And I will. And so can you